i promised the world and a dozen roses.
Sunday, October 31, 2004 i am one and one is me
i finished reading
the prophet
the alchemist.
make me feel like i live in the middle east.
i want
the wind to take the words from my mouth
the wind to play with my hair
the water to run through my body
to be the water
to be the wind
to caress the cheeks of every human
to give them strenght when the sun threatens to wither them
i want to be the world.
i want to speak world.the language that needs to language.the words that need no words.
i want eternity.
i dont want o levels.
please
anything but o levels.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
why doesn't anybody like me, i don't understand.
the prophet
the alchemist.
make me feel like i live in the middle east.
i want
the wind to take the words from my mouth
the wind to play with my hair
the water to run through my body
to be the water
to be the wind
to caress the cheeks of every human
to give them strenght when the sun threatens to wither them
i want to be the world.
i want to speak world.the language that needs to language.the words that need no words.
i want eternity.
i dont want o levels.
please
anything but o levels.
# please let me dream @ 15:55
if the earth stopped spinning will i be 17 forever??
scientifically, no.cos that biological clock continues to move on.
damn.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
it's not me, buried wreckage my soul.
scientifically, no.cos that biological clock continues to move on.
damn.
# please let me dream @ 17:18
i wanted to sleep at 1am.ended up sleeping at 4.then woke up at 7 to go sch for PHYSICS O LEVELS.wtf i wrong with me.anw.kept tossing and turning.its either that there is really a ghost in my room or its that stupid book.it's some philosophy shit and it's frying my brains.but it's really fun.i don't believe it thought.on the other hand, what can we believe?plato -tts one of the first philosophers- says that we live in a world of shadows.the real thing comes only after we die.see that pretty flower over there?when youre dead, it'll be even MORE pretty.HAHA.ok i shall go on to talk abt it so, see that little cross at the top right hand corner of the window?pls click it.i doubt u wanna read this.its for my reference's sake :D
conclusion one:we are made up of memories, of thoughts. our body is simply a vehicle in which we exist.without the body, we are not US. our souls are just souls.they are the key to the past cos theyre reincarnated -if u believe in that-.
and there is this thing abt how u cant jump into the same river twice.after the first time u jump in, the river changes. it is in a constant state of flux. if i talk to u now, then later, im not talkin to the same person any more.smth in u changes -an atom, a thought- and thus u are a new person.so u would say we are re-born every second right?WRONG.we are qualitively different, but we are NUMERICALLY the same.there is only one ME.or YOU.
know what.im too tired to type it out.its cool shyte i tell u.
Monday, October 25, 2004
third time lucky
conclusion one:we are made up of memories, of thoughts. our body is simply a vehicle in which we exist.without the body, we are not US. our souls are just souls.they are the key to the past cos theyre reincarnated -if u believe in that-.
and there is this thing abt how u cant jump into the same river twice.after the first time u jump in, the river changes. it is in a constant state of flux. if i talk to u now, then later, im not talkin to the same person any more.smth in u changes -an atom, a thought- and thus u are a new person.so u would say we are re-born every second right?WRONG.we are qualitively different, but we are NUMERICALLY the same.there is only one ME.or YOU.
know what.im too tired to type it out.its cool shyte i tell u.
# please let me dream @ 18:24
i knew what to do this time.just wait till the pain went away.my bones felt bigger than my body.and i was breaking out in cold sweat.my mum says its low blood pressure.damn.i hate it.third time its happened.luckily it was at home.imagine if i was in school.damn.damn.
had a horrible dream.
dont wanna talk a lot.
got my french o level today.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
this poison's my intoxication....
had a horrible dream.
dont wanna talk a lot.
got my french o level today.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME.
# please let me dream @ 11:27
i got the used's latest album.
I LOVE THE GRAPHICS.i keep drawing them.nice sae!!!so tortured and...gosh.i love it.i think i have worn the cd out playing it.23 bucks well used.
haha i read siti and nihaad blog.what's this fascination with sperm whales ?! u know their sperm is salty tts why the sea gets saltier.and they excrete mucho mucho sperm.
i just finished reading "lovely bones" fogot the author.its a beautiful book.it's like "remember me" by christopher pike and "chasing unicorns" by forgot who. i have a fascination with authors that use the dead as their first person i guess.
you know how we always want THINGS.but things are just that.THINGS.and once we get them we just want more THINGS.until there comes a point in our life where THINGS don't have any use anymore.so what do we want then?many people claim they know what they want.do they really.things are always better when we play them in our head.
i have a phobia of attaining what i think i want because im afraid it won't be worth it.and i can shamefully say that in my 17 years of living i have never worked worked for anything and that just plain sucks.i wonder when will i find something that i really want want and whether i'll finally be able to work for it and not just stand there and hope to be lucky...again.
anyway.lovely bones also brought out this issue about women.and how our dreams and aspirations die out as soon as we say I DO. it's kind of sad.the woman we know?that's our mother.we would never know the real (insert name of your mother) because that person has died out once your parents married.it's kind of sad.and i look at my mom and i wonder if she ever pictured her life would be this hard and sucky.and i picture myself and wonder if i can take it.its sad really.that a woman's place is at home.that a woman's wish is just that...wishful thinking.HAH.
and that is why, my dear children, i do not want to be enslaved to children who would never be able to give me what i want.on the other hand, i might die without having done anything in my life, and what would i have to show for it? ah....the if's of life.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
I LOVE THE GRAPHICS.i keep drawing them.nice sae!!!so tortured and...gosh.i love it.i think i have worn the cd out playing it.23 bucks well used.
haha i read siti and nihaad blog.what's this fascination with sperm whales ?! u know their sperm is salty tts why the sea gets saltier.and they excrete mucho mucho sperm.
i just finished reading "lovely bones" fogot the author.its a beautiful book.it's like "remember me" by christopher pike and "chasing unicorns" by forgot who. i have a fascination with authors that use the dead as their first person i guess.
you know how we always want THINGS.but things are just that.THINGS.and once we get them we just want more THINGS.until there comes a point in our life where THINGS don't have any use anymore.so what do we want then?many people claim they know what they want.do they really.things are always better when we play them in our head.
i have a phobia of attaining what i think i want because im afraid it won't be worth it.and i can shamefully say that in my 17 years of living i have never worked worked for anything and that just plain sucks.i wonder when will i find something that i really want want and whether i'll finally be able to work for it and not just stand there and hope to be lucky...again.
anyway.lovely bones also brought out this issue about women.and how our dreams and aspirations die out as soon as we say I DO. it's kind of sad.the woman we know?that's our mother.we would never know the real (insert name of your mother) because that person has died out once your parents married.it's kind of sad.and i look at my mom and i wonder if she ever pictured her life would be this hard and sucky.and i picture myself and wonder if i can take it.its sad really.that a woman's place is at home.that a woman's wish is just that...wishful thinking.HAH.
and that is why, my dear children, i do not want to be enslaved to children who would never be able to give me what i want.on the other hand, i might die without having done anything in my life, and what would i have to show for it? ah....the if's of life.
# please let me dream @ 15:04
i watched this spanish film "goya" last night on central and spanish films are just like french films sae.no conclusion.lot's of grey areas.he was a fine man -and a womanizer :( - and he was deaf.which leaves me wondering what a deaf person hears all the time.and what a blind person sees.blackness?how does a blind and deaf person speak? think? do words just come to us?and if so in which language.i guess getting blind after having experienced sight is a bitter sweet experience because at least during that eternall abyss, you can remember the faces of your loved ones, the bright colours of the sky and the trees around you.AND YET that must suck because you know you will never ever see those sights again.if you were to wake up blind and deaf one day, what would you choose to hear?would they be the sounds from within or the sounds that you yearn for?i think , like for that goya man, the inner sounds are nightmares. at night, he heard the sound of women crying for their lost children, of horses galloping coming nearer and nearer.it'll be horrible to know you're deaf yet hear the sounds of pain.
geez.that was random.
i would have beetle juice in my mouth.
geez.that was random.
# please let me dream @ 15:11
i was reading this book and i like this passage.anyway in case you don't get it, the narrator thinks he has a hand grenade as a head cos anything would set him off.
" ... If you're blind, you get a white stick. If you've got a gammy leg you get a disabled sticker for parking on double yellow lines. A hand grenade for a head is a genuine disability and it would be easier if the general public were made aware of it. Perhaps he could start a new trend- the lovesick could stitch a heart to their sleeve, the bitter, a tape of soggy chip to their shoulder. If there were more obvious clues to why people behaved the way they did, the world would surely be a nicer place" -Hunting Unicorns (Bella Pollen)
i thought it was cool.like if you're happy then you can have like a smily sticker on your forehead or smth.HAHA.if ure angry then u have a flashing red pimple on your forehead.
hey thinking about it, we should all have colour indicators on our foreheads. then when we are happy or sad or angry or lonely, the colours would change
nihaad - black and blue
siti- green cos she's sick
dani- pus-coloured cos im sick and SATURNINE and and and...just eeeeeee
bana- deep blue cos she's studying
so kids, whats your colour today???
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
i am a idiot.
" ... If you're blind, you get a white stick. If you've got a gammy leg you get a disabled sticker for parking on double yellow lines. A hand grenade for a head is a genuine disability and it would be easier if the general public were made aware of it. Perhaps he could start a new trend- the lovesick could stitch a heart to their sleeve, the bitter, a tape of soggy chip to their shoulder. If there were more obvious clues to why people behaved the way they did, the world would surely be a nicer place" -Hunting Unicorns (Bella Pollen)
i thought it was cool.like if you're happy then you can have like a smily sticker on your forehead or smth.HAHA.if ure angry then u have a flashing red pimple on your forehead.
hey thinking about it, we should all have colour indicators on our foreheads. then when we are happy or sad or angry or lonely, the colours would change
nihaad - black and blue
siti- green cos she's sick
dani- pus-coloured cos im sick and SATURNINE and and and...just eeeeeee
bana- deep blue cos she's studying
so kids, whats your colour today???
# please let me dream @ 14:36
who hacked my account?!!shitpissfuck.....
anyway.
im not supposed to be here.
i am at woodlands library.anyone wanna join me and study with me message me
adios!!!
Saturday, October 16, 2004
my new love
anyway.
im not supposed to be here.
i am at woodlands library.anyone wanna join me and study with me message me
adios!!!
# please let me dream @ 13:25
casual sex-the wall between
Casual sex, intentions like a chalk outline, of a dead body, screaming clarity more convincingly than the body itself. If you let me kiss your neck and unbuckle your belt, I swear we wont be the same again.
Chorus:
I swear we wont be the same again. x3
You're drunk and probably an asshole but I dont care.
Breakdown:
Do you think it means nothing to me?
a wall between.
Casual sex, intentions like a chalk outline, of a dead body, screaming clarity more convincingly than the body itself. If you let me kiss your neck and unbuckle your belt, I swear we wont be the same again.
Chorus:
I swear we wont be the same again. x3
You're drunk and probably an asshole but I dont care.
Breakdown:
Do you think it means nothing to me?
# please let me dream @ 16:15
NIHAAD JANGAN SAD!!GO STUDY!!!
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you would have thought i just announced taxes had been incresed to 75%.
i say:i broke my specs
mother:how
i say:someone stepped on it
mother:where were they
i say:on the floor
mother: is that the place you put your glasses at? (getting louder) i don't work hard just to replace the stuff you all break ...(and a whole gamut of other accusations)
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on a brighter note, the zine we got from trent was cool.very moving.empowering.i liked her band.yest's majority in the crowd wasnt very appreciative.sit down look pretty, sweating is not cool..trents zine's so true siah.scene firls feel compelled to look scene and to be seen.it was proven.. thou shall not judge.
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"To Keep Singapore Ahead" TODAY, thursday october 14 2004
i guess my young-ness is shown by how i don't understand the logic behind LKY's thinking.seems he is trying to continue the division that separates the elite from lower class? "what will make the difference (in having more with a natural ability to be successful a.k.a. ppl tt earn a lot of money, like entrepeneurs artists and writers) is when you have graduates marrying graduates".he is so cocky, "I'm not so worried about our neighbours because they cannot quite catch up so quickly, you can build infrastructure, but you can't change the quality of people quickly,". You wait LKY, you might swallow back your words soon. If the leader displays this type of shyte attitude,what more the citizens.I'm not anti-singapore.I have realised it is a place that has given me opportunities, but this environment of "be a graduate or nothing" and "be ahead or die" is demoralising.everyone's competing not helping.there's a huge gap between the up and down.and that's why issues like the inability for exconvicts to join the workforce comes in.some feel there should be a division between those who obey the law and those who break it, else there is no point in having the law.i don't know man.you decide.
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if you guys still don't know, o levels is in 2 weeks
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. A Song For The Optimists-atreyu
Blow the last candle out. Let the wax harden
I wish I could stop crying. And I wish that someone still loved me [x2]
Just breathe and focus. How can I when the air is so cold and empty,
That my lungs froze right in my chest.
I'll be honest the silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture
And the smiles are so difficult to fake.[x2]
What do I have to do, or who do I have to kill, to get what I want. What I need[x2]
Happiness is an emotion I was born to this world without,
nothing pleases me. And i can never be satiated.
Through this toil I will breed my own distress and destroy my best hopes,
fuck up the only things that I love.
I watched my aspirations crashing to the ground, on the backs of the angels that I've slain.
But I meant so well, I tried so hard, gave everyting in my soul, to what end, to what end
Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away.[x3]
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yesterday was the official last day of school.what brynn said really struck me.she said i won't cry because theres not a lot of people in school like me and therefore i won't be sad leaving.i guess sort of, no idendity with the school kinda thing.i guess thats true with the exeption of some i didn't build really strong ties with many.i'm just a weird.someone to make people laugh and feel better that they do their homework.
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whatever it is i still have feelings..aku sensitive ah..haha.and i'm going to miss:
1.vegeterian stall
2.canteen gang
3.being the "stupid wacky crazy" one in class.
4.Ms Azlin
5.Mrs Geck
6.XAC, fel, yuko, cin. laureen, beck, jamie, bess, steph, lilian, cat, joanne, eeli, SHIRLYNN, yihan, huilin......
7.crezhockey.all my team mates even with crescent club,i know it'll never be the same you know
8.wearing a uniform
9.mass run
10. PE
11.X-country
12.skipping classes due to: matches, outside exams, non-official excuses
13. inside jokes about the bonesetters daughter and a view from the bridge
14.school library
15waking up early
16. being in a small school
17.being young and restless
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that was long.and im not going to go online for long as well.
6 weeks baby!!! peace to you all.
"read the newspapers,drink milk and change your underwear everyday"
Thursday, October 14, 2004
i feel the size of this fullstop .
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you would have thought i just announced taxes had been incresed to 75%.
i say:i broke my specs
mother:how
i say:someone stepped on it
mother:where were they
i say:on the floor
mother: is that the place you put your glasses at? (getting louder) i don't work hard just to replace the stuff you all break ...(and a whole gamut of other accusations)
---------------
on a brighter note, the zine we got from trent was cool.very moving.empowering.i liked her band.yest's majority in the crowd wasnt very appreciative.sit down look pretty, sweating is not cool..trents zine's so true siah.scene firls feel compelled to look scene and to be seen.it was proven.. thou shall not judge.
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"To Keep Singapore Ahead" TODAY, thursday october 14 2004
i guess my young-ness is shown by how i don't understand the logic behind LKY's thinking.seems he is trying to continue the division that separates the elite from lower class? "what will make the difference (in having more with a natural ability to be successful a.k.a. ppl tt earn a lot of money, like entrepeneurs artists and writers) is when you have graduates marrying graduates".he is so cocky, "I'm not so worried about our neighbours because they cannot quite catch up so quickly, you can build infrastructure, but you can't change the quality of people quickly,". You wait LKY, you might swallow back your words soon. If the leader displays this type of shyte attitude,what more the citizens.I'm not anti-singapore.I have realised it is a place that has given me opportunities, but this environment of "be a graduate or nothing" and "be ahead or die" is demoralising.everyone's competing not helping.there's a huge gap between the up and down.and that's why issues like the inability for exconvicts to join the workforce comes in.some feel there should be a division between those who obey the law and those who break it, else there is no point in having the law.i don't know man.you decide.
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if you guys still don't know, o levels is in 2 weeks
------------
. A Song For The Optimists-atreyu
Blow the last candle out. Let the wax harden
I wish I could stop crying. And I wish that someone still loved me [x2]
Just breathe and focus. How can I when the air is so cold and empty,
That my lungs froze right in my chest.
I'll be honest the silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture
And the smiles are so difficult to fake.[x2]
What do I have to do, or who do I have to kill, to get what I want. What I need[x2]
Happiness is an emotion I was born to this world without,
nothing pleases me. And i can never be satiated.
Through this toil I will breed my own distress and destroy my best hopes,
fuck up the only things that I love.
I watched my aspirations crashing to the ground, on the backs of the angels that I've slain.
But I meant so well, I tried so hard, gave everyting in my soul, to what end, to what end
Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away.[x3]
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yesterday was the official last day of school.what brynn said really struck me.she said i won't cry because theres not a lot of people in school like me and therefore i won't be sad leaving.i guess sort of, no idendity with the school kinda thing.i guess thats true with the exeption of some i didn't build really strong ties with many.i'm just a weird.someone to make people laugh and feel better that they do their homework.
------------
whatever it is i still have feelings..aku sensitive ah..haha.and i'm going to miss:
1.vegeterian stall
2.canteen gang
3.being the "stupid wacky crazy" one in class.
4.Ms Azlin
5.Mrs Geck
6.XAC, fel, yuko, cin. laureen, beck, jamie, bess, steph, lilian, cat, joanne, eeli, SHIRLYNN, yihan, huilin......
7.crezhockey.all my team mates even with crescent club,i know it'll never be the same you know
8.
9.
10.
11.
12.skipping classes due to: matches, outside exams, non-official excuses
13. inside jokes about the bonesetters daughter and a view from the bridge
14.school library
15
16. being in a small school
17.being young and restless
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that was long.and im not going to go online for long as well.
6 weeks baby!!! peace to you all.
"read the newspapers,drink milk and change your underwear everyday"
# please let me dream @ 13:59
in primary school, all those whishpers always seemed to be about me.i have always always wanted to learn malay cos when those mats spoke...it always seemed like they were talking about me.and i really wanted to know why they saw a need to laugh at me.
now i realise...not only do i need to learn malay..i need to learn mind reading.
or maybe i'm just paranoid.
now i realise...not only do i need to learn malay..i need to learn mind reading.
or maybe i'm just paranoid.
# please let me dream @ 16:40
I am a hybrid of:
Progressive Girl Indie Girl Click on the pictures below to read more:
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# please let me dream @ 16:02
i want to listen to riot grrl musik
"Male Model"SLEATER KINNEY
He's got a perfect face Turn away before you go and turn me on I cannot look away I'm stunnedit's that Je ne sais quoi uh huh He talks to me in my sleep Does he write my songs for me? Should I try to play just like him? Kick it out, could you show me your riffs? You always measure me by him Don't get me wrong I'm not opposed to something big I'm so sick of tests Go ahead and flunk my ass You don't own the siituation, honey You don't own the stage We're here to join the conversation and we're here to raise the stakes Now do you hear that sound as the Model breaks Take the Stage? Let the image of him fade away Go back and tear the pictures from the page It's time for a new rock n' roll age History will have to find a different face and if you're ready for me I just might be what you're looking for
i hate justinhan.
"Male Model"SLEATER KINNEY
He's got a perfect face Turn away before you go and turn me on I cannot look away I'm stunnedit's that Je ne sais quoi uh huh He talks to me in my sleep Does he write my songs for me? Should I try to play just like him? Kick it out, could you show me your riffs? You always measure me by him Don't get me wrong I'm not opposed to something big I'm so sick of tests Go ahead and flunk my ass You don't own the siituation, honey You don't own the stage We're here to join the conversation and we're here to raise the stakes Now do you hear that sound as the Model breaks Take the Stage? Let the image of him fade away Go back and tear the pictures from the page It's time for a new rock n' roll age History will have to find a different face and if you're ready for me I just might be what you're looking for
# please let me dream @ 18:25
how do you spell songkok?guys look nice in hats.including songkoks.
form teacher called this morning.haven't been going school for 2 days.big deal it's going to end soon!!i'm sick anyway.i've a sore throat.i haven't done any work for 5 days.that's bad man.o levels soon but prelims drained me.though i didn't do as well as you 6pointers and whatever pointers..and though i didn't mug that hard...it's still tiring to know you're not done yet.they should let us choose whether we want to take prelims lahh.
mum took my phone away for today.haha.
at night i get a fever.i think i'm a hypochondriac. i hope that's how you spell it.you know...a person who thinks he is sick all the time?that's me.
i want to get a lotta movies.
1.bonnie and clyde
2.power rangers the movie
3.matilda
4.fight club
5.ok i forgot what else.but have!!!hmmmm
6.black and white movies
7.charlie chaplin
8.grease
episode one:
she says:well if you like her so much maybe i'll just kill you both and you can be together forever
he says:don't do anything you'll regret
she says:don't worry i won't
sometimes i think i just caught you
in the art of
watching me watch you
but other days i just sit there
and face the fact
that you're not even aware
i exist
*take that you barbo doll.*
talked to a very interesting person last night...
please please please please dani i beg beg beg beg beg beg you
study!!!!!
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
superman is dead!!!!
form teacher called this morning.haven't been going school for 2 days.big deal it's going to end soon!!i'm sick anyway.i've a sore throat.i haven't done any work for 5 days.that's bad man.o levels soon but prelims drained me.though i didn't do as well as you 6pointers and whatever pointers..and though i didn't mug that hard...it's still tiring to know you're not done yet.they should let us choose whether we want to take prelims lahh.
mum took my phone away for today.haha.
at night i get a fever.i think i'm a hypochondriac. i hope that's how you spell it.you know...a person who thinks he is sick all the time?that's me.
i want to get a lotta movies.
1.bonnie and clyde
2.power rangers the movie
3.matilda
4.fight club
5.ok i forgot what else.but have!!!hmmmm
6.black and white movies
7.charlie chaplin
8.grease
episode one:
she says:well if you like her so much maybe i'll just kill you both and you can be together forever
he says:don't do anything you'll regret
she says:don't worry i won't
sometimes i think i just caught you
in the art of
watching me watch you
but other days i just sit there
and face the fact
that you're not even aware
i exist
*take that you barbo doll.*
talked to a very interesting person last night...
please please please please dani i beg beg beg beg beg beg you
study!!!!!
# please let me dream @ 16:12
CHRISTOPHER REEVES IS DEAD! -he played superman in 1978- what's the world coming to!no handsome superman!!
as i was making my way through the playground i heard a whiny shrill voice going -i beat you ah!- it was a small PAP kindergarden kid talkin to her teacher.they go to the playgroung every morning.wahlau.small kid so abusive.hahahaha.like lizzie!!!!
i also came across a conversation stephgoh printed out for me in sec 2.she was talkin to leaonadi.haha at that time he was the IT thing man.but being the stupid boy he is nothing happened.never mind.may he go RJC and find an RGS girl to play neopets with him.i still remember how adityo owned him because he go and bet his body and he lost.HAHA!!and i felt like jolly smsing him n he asked "
who is this" drown in poodles!!
hmmm just read cin and laureen's blog. message to you both: don't be sad!i know what's it like to have people around me think that my achievements are no big deal!i know what's it like to have people around me perfect!i know i know!and that's why i have stopped trying to be it. you guys are outstanding don't let anyone make you feel otherwise.ok?ok!!
just recieved a message from nihaad.wanna go uk?i want!but.i don't know.see how.i'm going to go get french manicure if i go to france!!and i'll eat french fries!
i was reading my diary from pri 6 all the way to sec2.shit.i was/am/will be a dweeb forever and ever.i remember how i used to think i was so angsty and differest just cos i listened to eminem in pri6.then it went on to blink and here i am now.nothing much has changed i'm still the same insecure dweeb.and i remember how jealous i was of afiqah and she was like my idol or smth.haha.and i remember muizz!oh muizz! "u played with my heart got lost in the game oh baby baby oops..."BRITNEY.emo emo ah!!
so much has happened.yet you remember so little.i wish i hadn't stopped writing in my diary.though it was so effing childish and dumb...at least i would have something to hold on to.i mean...where does the past go to?i miss primary school and feeling like it was the centre of the world.
haha!!
hello!!
my sister pierce her nose.
hello!!!
i pierced my navel and my brow and my lip.
you believe?
gotcha!!
bye bye bye bye bye!
Sunday, October 10, 2004
suffering, not smiling.
as i was making my way through the playground i heard a whiny shrill voice going -i beat you ah!- it was a small PAP kindergarden kid talkin to her teacher.they go to the playgroung every morning.wahlau.small kid so abusive.hahahaha.like lizzie!!!!
i also came across a conversation stephgoh printed out for me in sec 2.she was talkin to leaonadi.haha at that time he was the IT thing man.but being the stupid boy he is nothing happened.never mind.may he go RJC and find an RGS girl to play neopets with him.i still remember how adityo owned him because he go and bet his body and he lost.HAHA!!and i felt like jolly smsing him n he asked "
who is this" drown in poodles!!
hmmm just read cin and laureen's blog. message to you both: don't be sad!i know what's it like to have people around me think that my achievements are no big deal!i know what's it like to have people around me perfect!i know i know!and that's why i have stopped trying to be it. you guys are outstanding don't let anyone make you feel otherwise.ok?ok!!
just recieved a message from nihaad.wanna go uk?i want!but.i don't know.see how.i'm going to go get french manicure if i go to france!!and i'll eat french fries!
i was reading my diary from pri 6 all the way to sec2.shit.i was/am/will be a dweeb forever and ever.i remember how i used to think i was so angsty and differest just cos i listened to eminem in pri6.then it went on to blink and here i am now.nothing much has changed i'm still the same insecure dweeb.and i remember how jealous i was of afiqah and she was like my idol or smth.haha.and i remember muizz!oh muizz! "u played with my heart got lost in the game oh baby baby oops..."BRITNEY.emo emo ah!!
so much has happened.yet you remember so little.i wish i hadn't stopped writing in my diary.though it was so effing childish and dumb...at least i would have something to hold on to.i mean...where does the past go to?i miss primary school and feeling like it was the centre of the world.
haha!!
hello!!
my sister pierce her nose.
hello!!!
i pierced my navel and my brow and my lip.
you believe?
gotcha!!
bye bye bye bye bye!
# please let me dream @ 11:38
http://www.acres.org.sg/campdolphin.htm
just read it.its abt the dolphins held captive n what u can do to help them :) they're suffering, not smiling!!!
yesterday's gig was educative siah.they had people from the "food not bombs" organisation.you know it's illegal for a group of people to hand out free food to the homeless?cos its seen as protest.but i guess if u some big shot organisation can uh.must have centres i suppose.so that it doesn't look like and eyesore for the tourist.after all tourism is one of the "twin engines of growth n singaporeans should not just rely one one aspect of the economy."ok ol enough of talking people's views n words.
im gonna be a stupid person n reject jc offers n im gonna get a job n bum around b4 poly n maybe go that cambodia trip that ACRES is organising.need 300bux.gonna help animals.HAHA!!! :) itll make me feel useful :) n maybe i'll actually become a good person. :)
i hope i can get into the film n sound studies.it'll suck if i don't.my aunt wants to talk to me.she stays in canada n thinks i should go jc.or go over there cos a lot of movies are shot there.but....i just wanna go poly now.im sick of people sacrificing for my education n me letting them down.
haha!yesterday was exciting.nihaad came my house and siti ended up staying over.poor eddie n weeman.siti...he lubs u!!!!!follow us to yishuun where we only stayed for....15 minutes and 40 seconds.
we saw gloria n she's going to -secret secret secret- for us.n we made friends with riotgrrl who eeee us at first.n met a sweet gothic girl.n a skingirl n saw sarah n her sis.n met tess.haha!grrlmoshing!!!
damn.im so messy even when i'm typing.
n i'm so tired.my body aching.i suck siah.it aches like after intensive hockey.haha.new sport.moshing uh.im so surprised that nihaad still awake after -ahem ahem-.haha!.good eh.enough sammies for u i tell u!!!i'm glad u had fun.i hope.hope it drives u to get those 6 pts. :)
im gonna learn everyword in the english dictionary so i can write good prose.and maybe one day i can display the head propelling-body infecting- lung smashing- leg numbing experience of moshing.siti!!!!!!!that was nirvana man!!!!!!!!
zad toe pantat kung fu dancing really legendary.
aye n two mini fights broke out.i dont understand how they can mosh so violently n STILL expect not to get hit.
aiya.my sister got marriage proposal frm uber hemsem boy.
haha!!!
i shall go look for pictures of hemsem men.
aiiya.cannot post picture of john travolta and grease.
damn.
We go together like ramma lamma lamma ka dinga da dinga dong
Remembered forever as shoo-bop sha whada whadda yippidy boom da boom
Chang chang changity chang shoo bop that's the way it should be
Waooo Yeah
We're one of a kind like dip da dip da dip do whap de dobby do
Our names are signed boogedy boogedy boogedy boogedy shooby do wap shoo bop
Chang chang changity chang shoo bop we'll always be like one
Wa-wa-wa-one
When we go out a night (oh-h oh)
And stars are shining bright (oh-h, oh)
Up in the skies above
Or at the high school dance
Where you can find romance maybe it might be lo-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uve
Ramma lamma lamma ka dingity ding da dongShoo bop shoo wadda wadda yippity boom da boom
Chang chang changity chang shoo bop
Dip da dip da dip do wop da dooby do
Boogy boogy boogy boogy shooby sho wap sho wap
Sha na na na na na na na yippity dip da do
Ramma lamma lamma ka dingity ding da dong
and on and on
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
the old hag.
just read it.its abt the dolphins held captive n what u can do to help them :) they're suffering, not smiling!!!
yesterday's gig was educative siah.they had people from the "food not bombs" organisation.you know it's illegal for a group of people to hand out free food to the homeless?cos its seen as protest.but i guess if u some big shot organisation can uh.must have centres i suppose.so that it doesn't look like and eyesore for the tourist.after all tourism is one of the "twin engines of growth n singaporeans should not just rely one one aspect of the economy."ok ol enough of talking people's views n words.
im gonna be a stupid person n reject jc offers n im gonna get a job n bum around b4 poly n maybe go that cambodia trip that ACRES is organising.need 300bux.gonna help animals.HAHA!!! :) itll make me feel useful :) n maybe i'll actually become a good person. :)
i hope i can get into the film n sound studies.it'll suck if i don't.my aunt wants to talk to me.she stays in canada n thinks i should go jc.or go over there cos a lot of movies are shot there.but....i just wanna go poly now.im sick of people sacrificing for my education n me letting them down.
haha!yesterday was exciting.nihaad came my house and siti ended up staying over.poor eddie n weeman.siti...he lubs u!!!!!follow us to yishuun where we only stayed for....15 minutes and 40 seconds.
we saw gloria n she's going to -secret secret secret- for us.n we made friends with riotgrrl who eeee us at first.n met a sweet gothic girl.n a skingirl n saw sarah n her sis.n met tess.haha!grrlmoshing!!!
damn.im so messy even when i'm typing.
n i'm so tired.my body aching.i suck siah.it aches like after intensive hockey.haha.new sport.moshing uh.im so surprised that nihaad still awake after -ahem ahem-.haha!.good eh.enough sammies for u i tell u!!!i'm glad u had fun.i hope.hope it drives u to get those 6 pts. :)
im gonna learn everyword in the english dictionary so i can write good prose.and maybe one day i can display the head propelling-body infecting- lung smashing- leg numbing experience of moshing.siti!!!!!!!that was nirvana man!!!!!!!!
zad toe pantat kung fu dancing really legendary.
aye n two mini fights broke out.i dont understand how they can mosh so violently n STILL expect not to get hit.
aiya.my sister got marriage proposal frm uber hemsem boy.
haha!!!
i shall go look for pictures of hemsem men.
aiiya.cannot post picture of john travolta and grease.
damn.
We go together like ramma lamma lamma ka dinga da dinga dong
Remembered forever as shoo-bop sha whada whadda yippidy boom da boom
Chang chang changity chang shoo bop that's the way it should be
Waooo Yeah
We're one of a kind like dip da dip da dip do whap de dobby do
Our names are signed boogedy boogedy boogedy boogedy shooby do wap shoo bop
Chang chang changity chang shoo bop we'll always be like one
Wa-wa-wa-one
When we go out a night (oh-h oh)
And stars are shining bright (oh-h, oh)
Up in the skies above
Or at the high school dance
Where you can find romance maybe it might be lo-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uve
Ramma lamma lamma ka dingity ding da dongShoo bop shoo wadda wadda yippity boom da boom
Chang chang changity chang shoo bop
Dip da dip da dip do wop da dooby do
Boogy boogy boogy boogy shooby sho wap sho wap
Sha na na na na na na na yippity dip da do
Ramma lamma lamma ka dingity ding da dong
and on and on
# please let me dream @ 14:13
im gonna be 18 next year.PiaNgZ- so oLDz MaNz.
thanks to everyone who's wished me happy birthday!! :) n to haad for parting with her blood n siti for gettin me a limited edition fender!!:)
fission
i wish i could
split myself
form a chain reaction and then
i could do
everything i've ever wanted
what i learned today
i learned today
that Lord Rutherford
suggested that
anatomconsistedofatinypositivenucleus
with a
tiniernegativeelectronorbitingaroundit
very similar to
the solar system.
i wonder if
we are all just part
of a tiny electron.
haha.siti if i knew i was going to die soon...i's tell u ur the most beautiful person on earth.
i'd tell nihaad the same thing.
and bana.
and my mother.
and huimin.
and cupcake.
and stella.
i guess im not very good with words.
HAHA.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
wahlau.
thanks to everyone who's wished me happy birthday!! :) n to haad for parting with her blood n siti for gettin me a limited edition fender!!:)
fission
i wish i could
split myself
form a chain reaction and then
i could do
everything i've ever wanted
what i learned today
i learned today
that Lord Rutherford
suggested that
anatomconsistedofatinypositivenucleus
with a
tiniernegativeelectronorbitingaroundit
very similar to
the solar system.
i wonder if
we are all just part
of a tiny electron.
haha.siti if i knew i was going to die soon...i's tell u ur the most beautiful person on earth.
i'd tell nihaad the same thing.
and bana.
and my mother.
and huimin.
and cupcake.
and stella.
i guess im not very good with words.
HAHA.
# please let me dream @ 16:39
haha.4 or 5 weeks out of the online 'scene' man.im not a 'scenester' anymore. :(
haha.aiya.acjc called the hockey girls in for some reception thing.n just when i decided im gng poly if i cant get to vjc, acjc comes n impresses me.now i dont know what to do.
means now cannot go france already ah.esp if gonna join through hockey means must train.
my sister threw away my contacts into the sink.stupid lizzie.
i lousy ah.get b3 for english.........n french.both 69.
i hate the number 69.
haha.aiya.acjc called the hockey girls in for some reception thing.n just when i decided im gng poly if i cant get to vjc, acjc comes n impresses me.now i dont know what to do.
means now cannot go france already ah.esp if gonna join through hockey means must train.
my sister threw away my contacts into the sink.stupid lizzie.
i lousy ah.get b3 for english.........n french.both 69.
i hate the number 69.
# please let me dream @ 15:09
this is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
i am daniela/ a walking contradicion/
who comes from bolivia anyway/ seventeen years.
i love green/ READING/ poetry/ water/ stoning/ writing rubbish/ ripping images off cd sleeves/ music/
pretending to be oh-so-artsy/ stars/ photographs/ french and spanish films/ learning new things/
i hate those people/ ignorancy/ my temper/ my pettiness/ my indesciADHJKJAness/ hate
i wish i had taken art/ i was taller/skinnier/prettier/nicer/kinder/ smarter / to go Paris/ to see the world/
i want to be happy, to know.
take a bow.
the used// pennywise// ataris// tbs// blink// finch// brandnew// rhcp// nodoubt// vandals//
tsunamibomb// audiokarate// ramones// NOFX// offspring// teamdresch// rufio// thehonourrecital// greenday// NUFAN
// the lawrence arms// lagwagon// sleater kinney// hawthorne heights// this day and age// MCR//
hello.anyone there?
::sit
::nihaad
::debbie
::muni
::cin.laureen
::farhan
::johan
::mis :)
::stef
::mavis
::dee
::fariza
::pau-line
::izZAD
::sarah
::_ _ _ _
::XAC
::flintito
::ewick
::tess
::weinty
this is you with ur fingers on the keyboard.
"But if you love and have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody into the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingfully and joyfully...."-the prophet.
relics of remembrance.
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02/01/2003 - 03/01/2003
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12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004
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