i promised the world and a dozen roses.
Wednesday, December 31, 2003 im not drunk
A year has passed, what have i got to show for it?
1. stronger friendships//nihaad siti and stella, people who make the stay at crescent a wacky, fun and memorable one.
2.better hockey skills//i think this year has been fruitful in hockey,i been training hard (10.3 for beep test,not bad!) and i played this years 11-a-side which to me was a great achievement.
3.better music!//i think with the change of scene (more into the local music scene, more into the punkrock and all) was good for me. i can't stand the typical stereotype, the fake hiphop wannabes, it was not my scene. i cant be a bimbo, though at points of time i have wanted to.
4.a wider circle of friends//i know more people, esp from the hockey nat squad, and i thank God for having met everysingle one of them. Leng, hazlin, marcus, farhan, syah, zul and the list goes on.
5.meeting the one//thanks to siti for that:)
6.power to the music//i have found an output that helps soothe the anger, the fear, the love, the restlessness.
7.studieswise//i didnt do that well at the starting of the year, in fact i think i have a rather bad foundation, nevertheless this year was good academically, i have found my strenghts and weaknesses, and i am confident with hard work, next year would be a tough and enjoyable journey to the Os
8.family//living together with my whole family for this year has been good. there are lots of times when i just cant stand them, but living together is something that is natural and has helped me learn more about them. though i still am not patient and a nice sister, i think i could try harder next year :)
9.more matured outlook//a lot of things that mattered last year dont matter so much anymore. i sort of have seen what i want to work on now that would help in future and what is really worth it now. not the popularity contests etc.
i wanted to find ten things that haf gone right this year, but i think nine pretty much covers all. and now for those resolutions that are always forgotten...just for the sake of putting it downn......
goals for 2004
1.be nicer to my family and people in general
2.truly,madly,deeply don't let people put you down
3.work your ass off for Os
4.work your other ass off for hockey 11aside
5.dont eat so much
6.be patient!!!!!!
7.proactive, not REACTIVE.
thats it.really. oh and one more
8.learn how to play the guitar,hopefully perform in crezawards.
loser stuck at home
1. stronger friendships//nihaad siti and stella, people who make the stay at crescent a wacky, fun and memorable one.
2.better hockey skills//i think this year has been fruitful in hockey,i been training hard (10.3 for beep test,not bad!) and i played this years 11-a-side which to me was a great achievement.
3.better music!//i think with the change of scene (more into the local music scene, more into the punkrock and all) was good for me. i can't stand the typical stereotype, the fake hiphop wannabes, it was not my scene. i cant be a bimbo, though at points of time i have wanted to.
4.a wider circle of friends//i know more people, esp from the hockey nat squad, and i thank God for having met everysingle one of them. Leng, hazlin, marcus, farhan, syah, zul and the list goes on.
5.meeting the one//thanks to siti for that:)
6.power to the music//i have found an output that helps soothe the anger, the fear, the love, the restlessness.
7.studieswise//i didnt do that well at the starting of the year, in fact i think i have a rather bad foundation, nevertheless this year was good academically, i have found my strenghts and weaknesses, and i am confident with hard work, next year would be a tough and enjoyable journey to the Os
8.family//living together with my whole family for this year has been good. there are lots of times when i just cant stand them, but living together is something that is natural and has helped me learn more about them. though i still am not patient and a nice sister, i think i could try harder next year :)
9.more matured outlook//a lot of things that mattered last year dont matter so much anymore. i sort of have seen what i want to work on now that would help in future and what is really worth it now. not the popularity contests etc.
i wanted to find ten things that haf gone right this year, but i think nine pretty much covers all. and now for those resolutions that are always forgotten...just for the sake of putting it downn......
goals for 2004
1.be nicer to my family and people in general
2.truly,madly,deeply don't let people put you down
3.work your ass off for Os
4.work your other ass off for hockey 11aside
5.dont eat so much
6.be patient!!!!!!
7.proactive, not REACTIVE.
thats it.really. oh and one more
8.learn how to play the guitar,hopefully perform in crezawards.
# please let me dream @ 21:17
hus came over just now. he did not let my sister play with his phone till he went to delete some msgs..i wonder why...haiz...and when i asked him a couple of days ago abt those girls he was seen wit earlier on, he turned it arnd and made it seem as if i dont trust him.gak. anw, he going countdown with "bitches n dickheads"..hope he has fun..no not really..i hope he doesnt.i mean.all those girls..that type..so free...u know wat i mean??i worry.gah.possesive, no confidence bitch that i am.btw, i am drinkin beer now. i dont know why. i wanna get high. since i cant go out for countdown cos i cant go home early in the morning cos got no night rider. and i jus found out mrt open till 2am..FUCK YOU NORTH EAST LINE. now then tell me. actually, my sis told me. argh!!! i bet you hus is happy i cant go so he can go flirt with those girls...let me go read angsty poetry now. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
for the sake of updatin
# please let me dream @ 21:17
grr. nihaad sign up to www.allpoetry.com and add in all your poems..i was reading the poems there yest..some are powderful man. haha. and siti's psycho poems, haf u read them?..anyway..yesterday hockey carnival turned out well actually. we made it to the finals to lose to our seniors. i flicked too high. ARGH. nvm. nordin messaged me later on and told me that our team did well (only 6 sec3s, no reserves) and he was proud of us..yeah!!hahahaha..k..i gng band concert later..and collecting my contacts today..yay!!but my eye is kinda red..so i dunno if they'll give it to me la.g r r .
Saturday, December 27, 2003
under e bed
# please let me dream @ 11:02
xmas eve party was cool. i got to drink. n also xmas day. first glass of champagne. it wasnt tt nice. in fact kinda sucked.haha. well. i havent gone to develop the pics from tues gig. i wanna let siti see the twins. k i admit. i also wanna see. hehehehe. n i wanna see all the moshing n stuff.
went to watch school of rock yesterday. man it rocked! tts so punkrock. haha. its really nice. really really. i mean....wow...haha..the drummer boy was so..wow...n so was the lead guitarist..he's so geeky cute wowie!!!n the mrdewey guy [think ts his name] wrote a whole mindmap of rock scenen and all...n he mentioned ramones n sex pistols!yeahman!!!!hahahah...
trng yest was terrible. 3h trng. altogether ran 5.6 km. wahlau. then my card had no money so from compasspoint i had to wlk home. n i got lost so i had to walk twice the dist. ohwell. needless to say i didnt feel like eating whole day. :) had a horrible headache.
oh!n then yest hus came over for a while. then we were in my brothers room so suddenly heard knockin n i tot it was lizzie.so ignored. sekaly sekaly it was my grandmother. then guess wat?!i made hiim hide under the bed. i dont know why. then my grandma for some reason refused to lock herself in her room so he was there for a loooooong time until finally i told him to jus get out frm there n walk out..n lo n behold my grandma didnt even notice. it wasquite funny. after the ordeal was over la.hahahaha. k tts abt it i guess.
when are you guys coming back?!
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
went to watch school of rock yesterday. man it rocked! tts so punkrock. haha. its really nice. really really. i mean....wow...haha..the drummer boy was so..wow...n so was the lead guitarist..he's so geeky cute wowie!!!n the mrdewey guy [think ts his name] wrote a whole mindmap of rock scenen and all...n he mentioned ramones n sex pistols!yeahman!!!!hahahah...
trng yest was terrible. 3h trng. altogether ran 5.6 km. wahlau. then my card had no money so from compasspoint i had to wlk home. n i got lost so i had to walk twice the dist. ohwell. needless to say i didnt feel like eating whole day. :) had a horrible headache.
oh!n then yest hus came over for a while. then we were in my brothers room so suddenly heard knockin n i tot it was lizzie.so ignored. sekaly sekaly it was my grandmother. then guess wat?!i made hiim hide under the bed. i dont know why. then my grandma for some reason refused to lock herself in her room so he was there for a loooooong time until finally i told him to jus get out frm there n walk out..n lo n behold my grandma didnt even notice. it wasquite funny. after the ordeal was over la.hahahaha. k tts abt it i guess.
when are you guys coming back?!
# please let me dream @ 11:05
btw...hus has been more social. and siti topped up my card. n skinman sucks. HAHA.
merry xmas in advance
# please let me dream @ 17:52
got a lil time to go online. went to the 'first step' gig yest. hus band performed. to me, theyre good, jus need to get more originals..ahahahaha.so watch out for FINGERS GONE COLD.his parents were there so the 'aisyah' song was ripped off its title and he asked the audience to think of a title for it..sorry siti u got into trouble. i hope u feeling better now. even hus said u were v quiet yest. ahahaha. k k i gtg. xmas eve party.
Sunday, December 21, 2003
jam&hop n black cat
# please let me dream @ 17:51
went to some jam n hop thing yesterday cos there was gonna be some raggae band performing...all the punks skins n ruddies there as usual..but the skingirls dressed casual...KAOZ..hiphop girls...are like ashanti tt type..damn pretty..make me feel so..yucks.there was this girl who was on drugs i think...dance like...dunno..pole dancer..then suddenly stop..her eyes like..definitely on drugs la.but hus had to go home early so we din get to see the raggae band. BUSHMAN.saw all the bboys n fly girls..damn theyre quite gd..looking..ahahaha..sigh.i hate dani.she sucks.oh n this skin i think..loaded la..buy all the drinks n his food frm cafes..he passed arnd black cat..yeah its true siti they do go arnd passing drinks :) then Din ask 'since when u drink?!'..haha..ohwell..i decided to go on an oatmeal diet..those hip hop girls were so wow..n i havent seen a fat skingirl or rude grl or a punkgrl..haha the rudegrls all so lawah also..man i sound like a fucking lesbo.im not..eh i forgot one more thing..i saw mavis.she was at the cafe galilee..working..she looked tired..told her i liked her prom dress then got interrupted by jamie yeo and glenn ong..hus thinks jamie yeo pretty. :'| its so unfair. btw...i wont be able to get into the net for v long.....so...merry xmas in advance...bleah.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
# please let me dream @ 11:33
to aisyah from zi-i can say that we have been through a lot together ..she's the sweetest ..the nicest ..the paling lawa girl in the whole wide world ..syah jgn kembang k ..ur a great fren ..and a extremely great ex-gf ..u've been a great impact in my life ..and i'm grateful for watever tt happened between us ..ur a fren who i will never forget ...she is one big LFC fan ...meyampah aku !!she drools over tt shortie owen ...YUCK !! anyway ...i hope u'll finally get rid of ur halangans and be happy ..u take care ...
yeah thanks a lot for nothing zi.thanks a lot.really.im being petty right.yeah i sure am.but damn I WANT TO BE PETTY.
yeah thanks a lot for nothing zi.thanks a lot.really.im being petty right.yeah i sure am.but damn I WANT TO BE PETTY.
# please let me dream @ 10:58
they caught saddam hussein. all i gotta say is he didn't look like the tyrant he is. looked quite pitiful actually.
training in school yest.wah heart pain...my poor stick. anyway going to change stick soon so i guess doesnt matter.less than a month to school!.sigh..all the homework n horror. n i still havent passed up the a math assignment due november. he's gonna flip. hopefully change teachers :)get mrgao. leng told me that in BTSS he was a v good maths teacher.
blahblah. came home straight away then hus came over n played arnd wit lizzie then we went to watch 'loveactually' wit my sis.his treat. nice right. haha. so went town, lido specifically, catch 0545pm show..sis n him keep playing like small kids like tt. then we came back to punggol to eat dinner. lepak for a while then he went home. scared miss last bus so leave an hour earlier.
hmmm nihaad i wld call u but my mum was using the phone n after im calling hookulaini after which i may call u. haha. we need to work on that 'staytogetherforthekids' of mine!! haha.
stella if u read this right. miss u!!!n im so sorry!!! for the penislookingthing being spoilt..oh n anw, haf u listened to the new blink album properly?im getting quite used to it..sounds quite nice really.not as good as the old ones but ok la
n siti wlb b back soon then nihaad will leave, like relay race like that haha...
btw, i haf been reading the icq forum to educate myself on saddam issue......its kinda cool
# please let me dream @ 10:24
yest was happening man.met nihaad at kallang n we messed arnd wit the guitar.had lunch on nihaad then she went to clean up (geddit?lunch ON nihaad?eating OFF nihaad?) then after tt met hus..
yay!went to stasis gig at substation.arrived arnd 3plus n tot the gig was at the courtyard so lepak at the hawker centre wit hus.he got new phone n new games downloaded so he kept playing..like small kid like tt..haha..then i saw four band guys sitting at the next table..n i hope tt when im tt age i will b like them..support the local scene man..
substation guiness hall i think it was called..guiness smth la..anyway its this room wit bleachers and a stage..the bands were alright la..but most of the people were there waiting for fishtank,the ska band. and i pity the other bands, especially disco biscuit cos it was obvious fishtank was wanted and the guy was like "we know u want fishtank but let us play first" awww...there was this band..electrico..they were kinda cool..the bassist was DAMN cute!as in not handsome..he looked v goofy..plastic frames,skinny frame,lame haircut...but his bass playing was power..then he blew kisses n jumped off the stage and did all sorts of expressions while he played..i think siti n huimin will fall in love wit him..haha..it was as if the bass guitar was controlling him..
it was cool once fishtank came on..cos u can see all the skins, rudies, punks skanking and moshing n body surfing. then this punk called botak stole a mike..n kept trying to body surf..a few times he ended up on the floor, hitting his head and all..it really was funny..altogether two mikes and a pedal got stolen..and one mike n pedal found hahahahaha...i saw the multi coloured hair punk too..he's in temasek poly..n he was talkin to the mat saleh man who was in charge of smth...punk got connections..
it was fun..i didnt really get to see plain sunset perform cos we left after fishtank.gosh all these subcultures were all decked out in their finest..there were chinese skingirls too...i think they're cool.really.and also i saw melanie and her friend..punk man..ahaha..the hair was cool..a bit botakish at the back..very unevenly cut..maybe if i lose weight i can carry it off ahahaha.
tts not all.but i think u all getting kinda sick by now...all i wanna say to nihaad siti n huimin is tt u all shld haf been there..i think huimin wld make a nice skingirl.oh!!n i saw gothpunk girl too..wearing a lace skirt n black sweater n mucho mucho eyeliner..n siti!!!so manymany ruddies..some wearing eyeliner..wait..like u care..u got skinman!!!haha..oi oi oi!!!
oh wait..the seagames!the ppl say singapore hasnt won a badminton gold for 20years..but that's not really a long time cos every seagame only comes once every 4 years..so its acttualy only 5 seasons..so exxagerative..only want to make it seem a big deal. and let us wish the best to the hockey team who is participating in the AHF this month!cheers!
wait!one more thing..we have visitors..two taitais..and know wat!this one person is sooo forgetful..she called the other woman even though they were next to each other..and then when the auntie went to see the other rooms, the other lady called her "to pay her back" HAHAHA
Friday, December 12, 2003
yay!went to stasis gig at substation.arrived arnd 3plus n tot the gig was at the courtyard so lepak at the hawker centre wit hus.he got new phone n new games downloaded so he kept playing..like small kid like tt..haha..then i saw four band guys sitting at the next table..n i hope tt when im tt age i will b like them..support the local scene man..
substation guiness hall i think it was called..guiness smth la..anyway its this room wit bleachers and a stage..the bands were alright la..but most of the people were there waiting for fishtank,the ska band. and i pity the other bands, especially disco biscuit cos it was obvious fishtank was wanted and the guy was like "we know u want fishtank but let us play first" awww...there was this band..electrico..they were kinda cool..the bassist was DAMN cute!as in not handsome..he looked v goofy..plastic frames,skinny frame,lame haircut...but his bass playing was power..then he blew kisses n jumped off the stage and did all sorts of expressions while he played..i think siti n huimin will fall in love wit him..haha..it was as if the bass guitar was controlling him..
it was cool once fishtank came on..cos u can see all the skins, rudies, punks skanking and moshing n body surfing. then this punk called botak stole a mike..n kept trying to body surf..a few times he ended up on the floor, hitting his head and all..it really was funny..altogether two mikes and a pedal got stolen..and one mike n pedal found hahahahaha...i saw the multi coloured hair punk too..he's in temasek poly..n he was talkin to the mat saleh man who was in charge of smth...punk got connections..
it was fun..i didnt really get to see plain sunset perform cos we left after fishtank.gosh all these subcultures were all decked out in their finest..there were chinese skingirls too...i think they're cool.really.and also i saw melanie and her friend..punk man..ahaha..the hair was cool..a bit botakish at the back..very unevenly cut..maybe if i lose weight i can carry it off ahahaha.
tts not all.but i think u all getting kinda sick by now...all i wanna say to nihaad siti n huimin is tt u all shld haf been there..i think huimin wld make a nice skingirl.oh!!n i saw gothpunk girl too..wearing a lace skirt n black sweater n mucho mucho eyeliner..n siti!!!so manymany ruddies..some wearing eyeliner..wait..like u care..u got skinman!!!haha..oi oi oi!!!
oh wait..the seagames!the ppl say singapore hasnt won a badminton gold for 20years..but that's not really a long time cos every seagame only comes once every 4 years..so its acttualy only 5 seasons..so exxagerative..only want to make it seem a big deal. and let us wish the best to the hockey team who is participating in the AHF this month!cheers!
wait!one more thing..we have visitors..two taitais..and know wat!this one person is sooo forgetful..she called the other woman even though they were next to each other..and then when the auntie went to see the other rooms, the other lady called her "to pay her back" HAHAHA
# please let me dream @ 17:30
marcus online.they going farhan's house..feel bad farhan always nice to me..but i dontfeel like gng...ah nvm..shall meet him soon..
i need zul.i need to tell him abt the stupid things tt are happening now.but he is at centralised trng.lucky pig.
just read stephanie's diary. hey that assholes been going clubbing.hey!!!!!i wanna go toooo...im gng to pay someone a phone call!!!heheheehehehehehe...
i need zul.i need to tell him abt the stupid things tt are happening now.but he is at centralised trng.lucky pig.
just read stephanie's diary. hey that assholes been going clubbing.hey!!!!!i wanna go toooo...im gng to pay someone a phone call!!!heheheehehehehehe...
# please let me dream @ 13:47
everything sucks by mxpx
All I ever needed was to eat popcorn with you, Come on over, Watch the late show, Stay up talking until two Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along Everything sucks when you're gone, Everything sucks when you're gone A dream of our reunion makes me crazy just to think, How so very far away you are, My hope begins to sink Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along Everything sucks when you're gone, Everything sucks when you're gone It's not ok, I've baked dinner here for two, And it's not ok, I've got candles lit for you, And It's not ok, I've got you're favorite records out, And it's not ok, You should have let it be, And ran after me Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along Everything sucks when you're gone, (I want you! I need you!) Everything sucks when you're gone (I want you! I need you!) [x2]
All I ever needed was to eat popcorn with you, Come on over, Watch the late show, Stay up talking until two Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along Everything sucks when you're gone, Everything sucks when you're gone A dream of our reunion makes me crazy just to think, How so very far away you are, My hope begins to sink Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along Everything sucks when you're gone, Everything sucks when you're gone It's not ok, I've baked dinner here for two, And it's not ok, I've got candles lit for you, And It's not ok, I've got you're favorite records out, And it's not ok, You should have let it be, And ran after me Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along Everything sucks when you're gone, (I want you! I need you!) Everything sucks when you're gone (I want you! I need you!) [x2]
# please let me dream @ 13:34
ihopeigettofindoutfromhimhimselfsoon. itinkttsyhekpssayinhe <3sme.guilt. justwishthathe'dtellmeabtkaeysoon.
went to nihaad's place yesterday..haha fun..tried to master greenday-time of ur life first few chords..hahaha..and blink's stay together for the kids...nihaad can do it really well sae!!..then her mother made nice food...and i emptied out the fake pineapple tarts..they werent really pineapple tarts..but smth like it
then went all the way to yishun.watch hus jam.bought contacts then was walkin out of the toilet towards the bus stop when some asshole:) bump me frm behind..it was hus..haha..then went to jamming studio frm there.
i was quite moody dont know why..n he was sweet to me..trying to find out why and all.felt bad.then we ate dinner and he sent me to the stop.we bumped into his mother!!!and all i said was hi!..so no manners..
idunnoifitsbetterifidinknow. sinceifoundoutikeepthinkinabtit intheweirdesttimes
today is a really bad day. my sister and brother arguing with the maid about my lil sis. i think she is going to quit soon. and that left me wondering what we would do without a maid. maybe i can stay home some days and alternate with my sis. yeah right!i got o's man.eh but stay home good, can study at home.hehehehe.hmm im doing my lit right now. at chapter 6 now. yeah yeah.all the time talk about work only.ahha.tom got trng.should be gng la.tom also got gig. not sure if gng.im broke :(. sis crying now. hope maid does not get any angrier.its scary. i hate it.
ifoundoutabthissupposedlygodsiskaeyn sheaskedhimifhestilllovedher&apologized4sayinsomemeanwords whichmeanstheywereconversingafterhetoldmehewenttoslp
maid going down now. i think to cool down. i think im the only one who not arguing with her. really scary i keep thinking she'll kill us.ahahaha.melodramatic tts me.
anyway tom's gig at substation, plain sunset and nvrlrn playing. dont know who else..forgot..should be good la..then sunday objectionoverule playing at orchard there..but sunday is my sis bday celebration..dont think can go, hus wants to go see them though. cant possibly go.
yellowcard's nice. download "way away" by them..hus sent it..its nice.
&ikeepthinkinabtit&wathidayahsaid ttallcoupleshafarighttotheirownsecretsbuthissecretsobig! howcanhesayhelovesme&stillkeepthemsgfrmkaey?? ithurtsitreallydoes&ihatebeingpetty!ido!
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
went to nihaad's place yesterday..haha fun..tried to master greenday-time of ur life first few chords..hahaha..and blink's stay together for the kids...nihaad can do it really well sae!!..then her mother made nice food...and i emptied out the fake pineapple tarts..they werent really pineapple tarts..but smth like it
then went all the way to yishun.watch hus jam.bought contacts then was walkin out of the toilet towards the bus stop when some asshole:) bump me frm behind..it was hus..haha..then went to jamming studio frm there.
i was quite moody dont know why..n he was sweet to me..trying to find out why and all.felt bad.then we ate dinner and he sent me to the stop.we bumped into his mother!!!and all i said was hi!..so no manners..
idunnoifitsbetterifidinknow. sinceifoundoutikeepthinkinabtit intheweirdesttimes
today is a really bad day. my sister and brother arguing with the maid about my lil sis. i think she is going to quit soon. and that left me wondering what we would do without a maid. maybe i can stay home some days and alternate with my sis. yeah right!i got o's man.eh but stay home good, can study at home.hehehehe.hmm im doing my lit right now. at chapter 6 now. yeah yeah.all the time talk about work only.ahha.tom got trng.should be gng la.tom also got gig. not sure if gng.im broke :(. sis crying now. hope maid does not get any angrier.its scary. i hate it.
ifoundoutabthissupposedlygodsiskaeyn sheaskedhimifhestilllovedher&apologized4sayinsomemeanwords whichmeanstheywereconversingafterhetoldmehewenttoslp
maid going down now. i think to cool down. i think im the only one who not arguing with her. really scary i keep thinking she'll kill us.ahahaha.melodramatic tts me.
anyway tom's gig at substation, plain sunset and nvrlrn playing. dont know who else..forgot..should be good la..then sunday objectionoverule playing at orchard there..but sunday is my sis bday celebration..dont think can go, hus wants to go see them though. cant possibly go.
yellowcard's nice. download "way away" by them..hus sent it..its nice.
&ikeepthinkinabtit&wathidayahsaid ttallcoupleshafarighttotheirownsecretsbuthissecretsobig! howcanhesayhelovesme&stillkeepthemsgfrmkaey?? ithurtsitreallydoes&ihatebeingpetty!ido!
# please let me dream @ 13:14
im so bored.....................................................
# please let me dream @ 22:25
BLEAHBLEAHBLEAHBLEAHBLEAH.
might be going to saturdays gig MYSELF.
thank u very much.
actually.i hope i go myself.
yeah.
i dooo
might be going to saturdays gig MYSELF.
thank u very much.
actually.i hope i go myself.
yeah.
i dooo
# please let me dream @ 22:24
im a genious man..i fixed my comp!!!!yeah!!damn msn is the one tt spoilt it...grrr
yesterday was fun..went out wit haad n siti n hus..then skinman joined for a while but then he went..haha..siti n i arrived b4 nihaad...on the other hand..we were late..haha..then we went swensen's for lunch...n nihaad took a picture of the disgusting stuff in my mouth..it tasted quite good though..then hus came n i saw his smokysmoky hair..haha..after which we went to HMV..then to play pool..then back to heeren to take neoprints..ahahahaha..
then nihaad n siti left n hus sent me back..but i wanted to eat roti prata for dinner so we did..then we came to my house..then called him n then nihaad..hahahahaha..tried to keep her company but got too sleepy..
woke up at 12plus today.
yup tts abt it.
Monday, December 08, 2003
yesterday was fun..went out wit haad n siti n hus..then skinman joined for a while but then he went..haha..siti n i arrived b4 nihaad...on the other hand..we were late..haha..then we went swensen's for lunch...n nihaad took a picture of the disgusting stuff in my mouth..it tasted quite good though..then hus came n i saw his smokysmoky hair..haha..after which we went to HMV..then to play pool..then back to heeren to take neoprints..ahahahaha..
then nihaad n siti left n hus sent me back..but i wanted to eat roti prata for dinner so we did..then we came to my house..then called him n then nihaad..hahahahaha..tried to keep her company but got too sleepy..
woke up at 12plus today.
yup tts abt it.
# please let me dream @ 14:22
just came back frm sch trng. very slack. saw project trng n wished i was as gd as them. hahahaha. then went compasspt to get contactlense solution.had to go eat to pass the time cos watsons wasnt open till 10plus.
theres a gig later on.at 5.at woodlands cc u think.shall find out more abt it n c whether to go.i dont think so la.none of the bands i heard of b4.got some jap band n sm others..i think all e foreign bands la.
haiz.nth to do.except start my hw.maybe if im not feeling lazy i go run another 3k.all of them must be really nervous at KL..thw tourn in in a few days time.sigh.
yesterday went to far east for tuition.weird right.then i went out wit my sis..she was late..and hus came along..his hair's not tt bright now..haha..we walked alot.bought the leather bag.so i guess i wont get to use it till my sis tires of it..which wld take not so long i hope..we were gng to get the comic wallet but got her pencil box instead..spent 20bux on food..might as well buy smth else..ohwell..one's gotta eat..the day b4 spent 50bux on stationery n sch stuff..can u believe it..so dumb.now im broke.n i feel bad..cos it's all my mum's money n she doesnt get to spend it.
i still wish i was one year younger..last yr i didn't make full use of my oportunity at the milocup..and it was such a gd opportunity..sheer luck.
don't know where's siti gone to. too busy. like a bee. bzzzzzzzzzz
is there such thing in the first place..a bee that's busy. if they're busy means they got other things to do. but they don't. they just suck nectar n dont know wat else.
im bored..........................
guess i better start on my hw huh.....
Saturday, December 06, 2003
theres a gig later on.at 5.at woodlands cc u think.shall find out more abt it n c whether to go.i dont think so la.none of the bands i heard of b4.got some jap band n sm others..i think all e foreign bands la.
haiz.nth to do.except start my hw.maybe if im not feeling lazy i go run another 3k.all of them must be really nervous at KL..thw tourn in in a few days time.sigh.
yesterday went to far east for tuition.weird right.then i went out wit my sis..she was late..and hus came along..his hair's not tt bright now..haha..we walked alot.bought the leather bag.so i guess i wont get to use it till my sis tires of it..which wld take not so long i hope..we were gng to get the comic wallet but got her pencil box instead..spent 20bux on food..might as well buy smth else..ohwell..one's gotta eat..the day b4 spent 50bux on stationery n sch stuff..can u believe it..so dumb.now im broke.n i feel bad..cos it's all my mum's money n she doesnt get to spend it.
i still wish i was one year younger..last yr i didn't make full use of my oportunity at the milocup..and it was such a gd opportunity..sheer luck.
don't know where's siti gone to. too busy. like a bee. bzzzzzzzzzz
is there such thing in the first place..a bee that's busy. if they're busy means they got other things to do. but they don't. they just suck nectar n dont know wat else.
im bored..........................
guess i better start on my hw huh.....
# please let me dream @ 11:56
woke up arnd 11 haha...pig.then went to my bro's pri sch arnd 12 noon to buy his book n on the way it rained so we were delayed..and when we arrived the lady said "sorry closed for today" !@#$@$@#%#$!!!!!!!! yeah so anyway on the way there i ran away frm my brother...don't know why and i ended up falling and i think i spoiled one of my muscles..grr...
yesterday was quite fun...went out wit my sister to wake me up...bought the punkrawkoholic cd...wanted to get the hari raya songs one but nvm..and we met two of the grp members frm one of the bands..they shook hands [wit my sis first of course x_x ] and said "all the guys frm tt band are homosexuals"..haha..i forgot the nad's name..saddening..the cd's alright...kinda funny..got exxagerated singlish in one of the songs..which is abt peter the pirate who sells pirated vcds..and it goes
"u can buy or u can leave but dont return la!"
or smth like tt.hahahahahhahahhahaha.
after that went to far east...saw this realllllly vintage leather slingbag..in love wit it sae!n its cheaper than the roxy cord bag..haha..hmmm din see anything else
then went to paya lebar to meet the rest..they were late..then went sophia's house for the BBQ...it was real fun...i taught them to eat the crabmeat witout BBQing it..hahahahhaha.
then i served ppl ice cream straight frm the tub cos it was melting..then my coach came...had a gd talk n all...too bad we cldnt swim..twas a condo wat..got rules abt wat to wear in the pool....
yay gng to tampines now...gonna milk some money out of my mommy and buy stuff....
new turf shoes and all...
time flies!!!!!!!
Friday, December 05, 2003
yesterday was quite fun...went out wit my sister to wake me up...bought the punkrawkoholic cd...wanted to get the hari raya songs one but nvm..and we met two of the grp members frm one of the bands..they shook hands [wit my sis first of course x_x ] and said "all the guys frm tt band are homosexuals"..haha..i forgot the nad's name..saddening..the cd's alright...kinda funny..got exxagerated singlish in one of the songs..which is abt peter the pirate who sells pirated vcds..and it goes
"u can buy or u can leave but dont return la!"
or smth like tt.hahahahahhahahhahaha.
after that went to far east...saw this realllllly vintage leather slingbag..in love wit it sae!n its cheaper than the roxy cord bag..haha..hmmm din see anything else
then went to paya lebar to meet the rest..they were late..then went sophia's house for the BBQ...it was real fun...i taught them to eat the crabmeat witout BBQing it..hahahahhaha.
then i served ppl ice cream straight frm the tub cos it was melting..then my coach came...had a gd talk n all...too bad we cldnt swim..twas a condo wat..got rules abt wat to wear in the pool....
yay gng to tampines now...gonna milk some money out of my mommy and buy stuff....
new turf shoes and all...
time flies!!!!!!!
# please let me dream @ 17:03
went to eat roti prata for supper with my sis.yeah she came back from her friends.had trng.thats abt it!
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
# please let me dream @ 00:25
i dont know wat i am doing online.i told myself i wouldnt be going online.and i just did.argh!!.went training super early today/didnt do nothing/the u15 grls had a match against the project team.so i left early.extra la.then i went all the way to tampines cos i wanted to stop by at cash converters.but it was closed.so i took number3 all the way to punggol.took me arnd 45 mins.saw a lot of ppl in their malay baju's.damn nice.the grls all look v nice.and they guys too. :) mis permed her hair.not tt obvious.i wanna do tt too!like the bottom half of my hair.but i guess it is too short.so naaah.anyway.i had roti prata for dinner.yum!.gosh im getting fatter.i can feel it.keep eating rice and oatmeal.oh!and i am not gng KL wit the u15..but if i get my allowance b4 the 20th i probably wld be going to KL on the 20th and 21st...with mis n mayb her bf n if hus wanna come along..i hope..then gng to ska fest..cesspit and all playing..should be cool..bet u a lot of skins..haha..its in a malaysian club..mis knows the cesspit guy so even if we underage i think we would be able to get in...i hope i hope!!i need to get away!and spending a night in a hotel in KL by myself n whoever else would be cool..nihaad siti...if u all can come..tag me or smth!!!not confirmed though. :)
# please let me dream @ 22:52
"Creative Suicide" All That's Left
I stitch myself one piece at a time that's what I've done for all my life.
I've stitched my life thus far and I am fine.
Whoa slow down I think I'm going to fast again.
Whoa writing my words with the vengeance of someone who wants to run away.
So I:
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
I never thought that broken glass, spilt milk, my life
would make me cry.
I never thought my life would be just fine.
Whoa, hold on I'm getting ahead of myself again.
Whoa, rethinking my words with conviction and the faith of one who wants to stay.
So I:
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
When I don't see you don't think I don't care.
When I'm not with you believe me I am scared.
Whoa slow down I think I'm going to fast again.
Whoa writing my words with the vengeance of someone who wants to run away.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
I stitch myself one piece at a time that's what I've done for all my life.
I've stitched my life thus far and I am fine.
Whoa slow down I think I'm going to fast again.
Whoa writing my words with the vengeance of someone who wants to run away.
So I:
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
I never thought that broken glass, spilt milk, my life
would make me cry.
I never thought my life would be just fine.
Whoa, hold on I'm getting ahead of myself again.
Whoa, rethinking my words with conviction and the faith of one who wants to stay.
So I:
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
When I don't see you don't think I don't care.
When I'm not with you believe me I am scared.
Whoa slow down I think I'm going to fast again.
Whoa writing my words with the vengeance of someone who wants to run away.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.
# please let me dream @ 13:12
"Life Size Mirror" No Use For A Name
She was done before the start, always mending broken hearts
Making others miserable not knowing who she's hurting
Father said, "This day will be, one for everyone to see"
Is it true you'll follow suit and have you learned a thing?
It's just a selfish way to go, it's safe to say she'll never know
For every person there's a whole life story waiting to be told
When she is happy it's OK, but then these people start to fade
Then we'll just watch her self-destruct as she gets old
She put up defensive shields, to walk through all of life's minefields
All defined by make-up and a car behind she's hiding
"Father do you have to go, left me questions I dont know"
Any answers or even close the life time lie was true
She's gonna move on with her life, and take it one heart at a time
And watch the little girl inside her wait behind as she goes on
But with this black heart she decides, who she'll take in and shove aside
Until the day she sees that everyone is gone
Getting used to people leaving, thinking true love is deceiving
Soon she'll know how lonely it can be
Now was it really worth the pain? A couple pills make her feel sane
While she lives out the story written for the part she is to play
With so much shame for her to hide, there's no more dignity, no pride
Then there will only be dark in her light of day
And she will only see a reflection, of her father's rejection
Nothing will change until she breaks this life, this life-size mirror
She was done before the start, always mending broken hearts
Making others miserable not knowing who she's hurting
Father said, "This day will be, one for everyone to see"
Is it true you'll follow suit and have you learned a thing?
It's just a selfish way to go, it's safe to say she'll never know
For every person there's a whole life story waiting to be told
When she is happy it's OK, but then these people start to fade
Then we'll just watch her self-destruct as she gets old
She put up defensive shields, to walk through all of life's minefields
All defined by make-up and a car behind she's hiding
"Father do you have to go, left me questions I dont know"
Any answers or even close the life time lie was true
She's gonna move on with her life, and take it one heart at a time
And watch the little girl inside her wait behind as she goes on
But with this black heart she decides, who she'll take in and shove aside
Until the day she sees that everyone is gone
Getting used to people leaving, thinking true love is deceiving
Soon she'll know how lonely it can be
Now was it really worth the pain? A couple pills make her feel sane
While she lives out the story written for the part she is to play
With so much shame for her to hide, there's no more dignity, no pride
Then there will only be dark in her light of day
And she will only see a reflection, of her father's rejection
Nothing will change until she breaks this life, this life-size mirror
# please let me dream @ 13:09
"Threesome"-Fenix Tx
And if there's nothing left to say
I'll string you along until I get my way
Use all those subtle inquiries
Like I want to know if you aim to please
And if you want to dance
If she wants to lead, I won't mind
Let's try this all again only faster now
Now go ahead and pretend I'm your master now
And if you want to dance, if she wants to lead
I'll go out of my way, I'll do anything
And one word is all I need
And if
You know it's all in your mind
Take your time with this one
You both deserve a good time
In every position that I can think of
If you want to dance, if she wants to leave
I'll go out of my way. I'll do anything
And one word is all I need
Let's try this all again, only faster now
Now go ahead and pretend I'm your master now
And if you want to dance, if she wants to lead
I'll go out of my way to make you believe
That your love is all I need
And if there's nothing left to say
I'll string you along until I get my way
Use all those subtle inquiries
Like I want to know if you aim to please
And if you want to dance
If she wants to lead, I won't mind
Let's try this all again only faster now
Now go ahead and pretend I'm your master now
And if you want to dance, if she wants to lead
I'll go out of my way, I'll do anything
And one word is all I need
And if
You know it's all in your mind
Take your time with this one
You both deserve a good time
In every position that I can think of
If you want to dance, if she wants to leave
I'll go out of my way. I'll do anything
And one word is all I need
Let's try this all again, only faster now
Now go ahead and pretend I'm your master now
And if you want to dance, if she wants to lead
I'll go out of my way to make you believe
That your love is all I need
# please let me dream @ 13:02
"Letters To You"- finch
Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
No more looking I've found home
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
I'm gone away
I'm gone away
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
No more looking I've found home
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
I'm gone away
I'm gone away
# please let me dream @ 12:34
thank u johan!strokes are cool.hahahaha.and theyre duper good looking.anw.gtg now.gotta pick up my tutor frm the bus stop...then haf a maths tuition.BLEAH!!!!
Monday, December 01, 2003
# please let me dream @ 13:56
fuck la.wrote a dammit long entry then it got erased.argh.bad mood now.and i just looked at my buttugly face on the mirror and realised i am starting to get those pimple things u get when u spend too much time in the sun or ur hair is always on ur face.damn.so much for looking emo.
yesterday i did go nordins house.took an hour to get there cos me joelle and huiching got lost.and so did the seniors.went round n round woodlands to find his house aha.once there we ate like nobody's business.mrnordin cooked curry.and it was real good.shared it wit june.aha.shee looked like the white stripes.all black and white.nice.msrilaini made brownies...they were so chewy and nice...ahhh.....haha
huiching looked like a fish i swear.the ball kenna her nose on friday and then i think it blocke the blood or smth cos the skin arnd ehr eye is all purple and bruised..and she did the shark thing on her hair so she REALLY looked like a fish.
i got to sngkang at arnd 9pm and it must haf been all the food cos i went to look for a job at Macs,the manager,Zedik, was really very nice. supposed to go for OJ this afternoon.but then i came home and talked to hazlin and she told me that job is not easy.it gets very tiring and boring sometimes and with hockey and studies i would not be able to cope...i knew she was right cos i was already having my doubts...then i got hysterical la.like very upset and all.called hus and he sounded nice.i think he had a good day....wonder wat happened..cos hazlin told me actually they were planning on going aisyah's hse then in the end didnt.i think her parents still recognise him.shld be the reason..he didnt really say.then i got upset cos i didn't wanna withdraw frm the job..felt guilty for wasting zediks time..then hus told me to go think abt it..and sleep early.cos i was plannin to go sch trng this morning.then i called him a second time....he asked me if i was ok and i told him i needed someone to tell me wat to do.i get stressed over small things.im terrible.seriously..
so he told me to go concentrate on my hockey n studies n dun get a job.tts wat i was planning.but i guess when someone tells u wat to do u r more sure of things.:)
so this morning i wake up at 5 am and reach delta at 630.and guess wat.
nobody there.
no school trng at 7-9 as usual.
this just shows tt i ahvent been gng for a long time.which i havent but tts only cos i trng with the U16 and nordin said dont go.aha.anw.yeah!i went for nth.
then i went to Macs to tell them i dont think i can do the job anymore.i didnt see zedik.dont know whether to be happy or sad abt tt.i really feel bad.dont know why.feel so guilty aha......
alright.enough rambling.going to hazlin's house later.hmm.i think i wont go national training.slacker.i will go watch husaini jam.but.i didnt go sch trng.so i should go right?but i havent seen hus jam for v long.aiyooooooo.......
i love britney! \m/
yesterday i did go nordins house.took an hour to get there cos me joelle and huiching got lost.and so did the seniors.went round n round woodlands to find his house aha.once there we ate like nobody's business.mrnordin cooked curry.and it was real good.shared it wit june.aha.shee looked like the white stripes.all black and white.nice.msrilaini made brownies...they were so chewy and nice...ahhh.....haha
huiching looked like a fish i swear.the ball kenna her nose on friday and then i think it blocke the blood or smth cos the skin arnd ehr eye is all purple and bruised..and she did the shark thing on her hair so she REALLY looked like a fish.
i got to sngkang at arnd 9pm and it must haf been all the food cos i went to look for a job at Macs,the manager,Zedik, was really very nice. supposed to go for OJ this afternoon.but then i came home and talked to hazlin and she told me that job is not easy.it gets very tiring and boring sometimes and with hockey and studies i would not be able to cope...i knew she was right cos i was already having my doubts...then i got hysterical la.like very upset and all.called hus and he sounded nice.i think he had a good day....wonder wat happened..cos hazlin told me actually they were planning on going aisyah's hse then in the end didnt.i think her parents still recognise him.shld be the reason..he didnt really say.then i got upset cos i didn't wanna withdraw frm the job..felt guilty for wasting zediks time..then hus told me to go think abt it..and sleep early.cos i was plannin to go sch trng this morning.then i called him a second time....he asked me if i was ok and i told him i needed someone to tell me wat to do.i get stressed over small things.im terrible.seriously..
so he told me to go concentrate on my hockey n studies n dun get a job.tts wat i was planning.but i guess when someone tells u wat to do u r more sure of things.:)
so this morning i wake up at 5 am and reach delta at 630.and guess wat.
nobody there.
no school trng at 7-9 as usual.
this just shows tt i ahvent been gng for a long time.which i havent but tts only cos i trng with the U16 and nordin said dont go.aha.anw.yeah!i went for nth.
then i went to Macs to tell them i dont think i can do the job anymore.i didnt see zedik.dont know whether to be happy or sad abt tt.i really feel bad.dont know why.feel so guilty aha......
alright.enough rambling.going to hazlin's house later.hmm.i think i wont go national training.slacker.i will go watch husaini jam.but.i didnt go sch trng.so i should go right?but i havent seen hus jam for v long.aiyooooooo.......
i love britney! \m/
# please let me dream @ 10:19
this is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
i am daniela/ a walking contradicion/
who comes from bolivia anyway/ seventeen years.
i love green/ READING/ poetry/ water/ stoning/ writing rubbish/ ripping images off cd sleeves/ music/
pretending to be oh-so-artsy/ stars/ photographs/ french and spanish films/ learning new things/
i hate those people/ ignorancy/ my temper/ my pettiness/ my indesciADHJKJAness/ hate
i wish i had taken art/ i was taller/skinnier/prettier/nicer/kinder/ smarter / to go Paris/ to see the world/
i want to be happy, to know.
take a bow.
the used// pennywise// ataris// tbs// blink// finch// brandnew// rhcp// nodoubt// vandals//
tsunamibomb// audiokarate// ramones// NOFX// offspring// teamdresch// rufio// thehonourrecital// greenday// NUFAN
// the lawrence arms// lagwagon// sleater kinney// hawthorne heights// this day and age// MCR//
hello.anyone there?
::sit
::nihaad
::debbie
::muni
::cin.laureen
::farhan
::johan
::mis :)
::stef
::mavis
::dee
::fariza
::pau-line
::izZAD
::sarah
::_ _ _ _
::XAC
::flintito
::ewick
::tess
::weinty
this is you with ur fingers on the keyboard.
"But if you love and have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody into the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingfully and joyfully...."-the prophet.
relics of remembrance.
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