i promised the world and a dozen roses.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003
napfa test today.got stressed over stupid things.im fat.untalented cheating scumbag who betrayed teachers trust.whoa.perasan only.make myself sound better than i am. mum's a nice person.i loove my mum......................... -dani get off the com now-ya tts her. BLEAGH.
Friday, July 25, 2003
sappy sappy sappy!!!!!!!!!im sorry!haha


It was the image that she believed
tears now streak the portrait
and his true colours she can see
an illusion painted with sweet words
shattered and smeared when she opened her eyes

girl you will make it
dont need no magic to go through it
its not a fantasy world
you were so wrong to think
it could be perfect
it could be perfect
you were wrong

its not a fantasy world
so before you walk through that green light
please open your eyes and see
the boy was lying to you

but he loved me,sweet denial
he wanted me,to be what you were not
he needed me,to play his game
the boy was just lying to you

with eyes open you can see
what it all has come to be
you dont need to live in fantasy
just need to leave that fantasy
its not perfect
would never be
that dont mean u cant be ha-ppy
and you dont need him anyway


fats come over me.played soccer today.my senior says i suck.but i bet u even ronaldo started somewhere ok!except many many years earlier.nvm.im younger so i got time to catch up.watched lizzie mcguire.or hwever u spell it.aha!nice.like princess diaries.crap!.haha.rotted at lido.wrote crap songs!.one even dedicated to a teacher.........waahahahaha...tt was hm n sit's one..n another one abt hitler which i think we lost in my classrm :(.beginning strenght trng for hockey.God give me strenght!hahaha.nuff crap.going to research on AL CAPONE.tt guys cool!not italian but became one of the most notorious gangsters.n apparently the researchers still are miffled by how can a man frm a loving family turn out like tt.BAH.


you said i needed you
maybe you were right
because i have left
and you picked me up
when i was alone
wound me up like a car toy
let me ram onto the wall
and when my will was gone
you picked me up and wound me up again
i dont need that anymore
i dont need to hurt
nobody wants to be alone
but i do now

Thursday, July 24, 2003
I am 27% Ska

I know the scene, I've heard the bands, and I am burned out. Well, these things happen. I will now go ahead and go through the same thing with Punk and Emo.

Take the Ska Test at fuali.com
yay.my favourite number.27.
ok so u dont need me.its ok.im used to it. :)
Your thoughts are so shallow
I wonder why you still drown in them
Your words,impale the innocent to the wall
Examining them with self-thought superiority
Blinding them,
With that light that once belonged to them
And leaving them in the dark

You words exploit their good intentions
You build yourself from their hurt
Those words,they scrape their pride
And build you a shield from their shame
And for a while the shield protects you from yourself
And as it grows stronger
Your insides rot.
Vile.Like the thoughts that form in your mind.
Disturbing.Like the words that stumble from your mouth.
To the point,where you loose yourself
Your friends
and finally
you
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Thursday, July 17, 2003

r u labeled yet?


today was pretty ok.i had a match against some brit sch.they are travelling on a hockey n netball tour.yes!those girls play both hockey AND netball!they are on their way to australia n i got to know one of them.katie.she was real nice!haha.totally contradicts the image i haf of brit ppl.hmmm.sch opening student's lounge.yay.they shld ahf a drumset in it.like real.haha.can always ask.I PLAYED LIKE SOME PIECE OF SHIT.i am not sad.

so what!


Wednesday, July 16, 2003
i pity all of you
who swallow wat ure served
not questioning a thing
never digging past the blue
to find the diamonds placed for u

its so sad that u can chant
facts witout a pause
if i was to stop n mute it
could u say it in ur words

imbued with the opinions
sold to u by them
are you atrophied
to the point of no return?

its so weird.i never thought there were actually people who gossip about other's status n mock them for it.like wth.its not the persons fault right.some are just lucky to be born at the right place on the right time.i seriously thought that was for bimbotic movies only.but i just read someones blog -whoa the wonders of blogs- for fun la.n lo n behold there are ppl who actually talk abt how rich n wat kinda house ppl live in.so tts how a persons worth is measured huh.wow.
so sweet.too bad no use is so old.siti is right.
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
"International You Day"

i'm sorry that it took so long
to write this song
but i gave up
you see one million words can't describe
how it feels
to know your love

where did i go wrong?
i should have told you from the start
that i'm closer then you think
when we're apart
nothing that i've tried
is as simple as this line

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

i swear i'm giving up my inside
to the one
that i adorded
i know this world is big enough
for you and i
but i'll give you more

i'm coming home today
to wipe the tear drop from your eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life
nothing that i've done
has ever been for one

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

my life is incomplete
my rites are absolutely gone
so wake me up
before you leave today
something i need to say
cause they'll be nothing when you're gone
Does hope get lost in all you do? And could dreams get much more real? When we're older, to look when we were younger, and change what's not the same, to look what we became, look what we've become, renew the walls within our hearts with room for change to come.
hmmm.hey i might just die tonight!only s.s.n. know why.>> ( :) ) tts exactly how the little incubus-devil- looked like on the floor!so tempting why wld u not eat it too?!..haha!..i finished all my hw.was gonna type out my eng essay n post it but i think its too long.abt television's influence on ppl now.n i dun feel like a hypocrite cos i dun watch tv..haha!.anw.i gonna lend stella blink so she can discover the wonders of them..n if she looses it i can have 'all of [her]'n '[she'll] be the one that i try to break' yesh i am listening to watashi wa now...n not they are not a pop jap band!.n i tot abt it.itll be stupid to walk arnd wit a watashiwa band shirt cos these idiots will think i am a jap poppie groupie.
Monday, July 14, 2003
woweee..mum did get me the blink shirts..i am...excited happy delirious exhilirated breathless..wahahaha..dunno la my vocab not that extensive.and anw blink's cd not out till october..BUMMER.so sad.n i tot i might be able to get it first.aye.i wish i was in the states wit my mum.she said all the people in the punk shop had piercings.n i told her to get me a studded belt.she said maybe.aye.nvmher next stop canada.bet u she will find it there,hope she gets it for me.wahaha.but she cldnt find watashi-wa n no use for a name t shirts.tts real weird.bet u she din look hard enough.wahahaha.hmmm i made my sisters skirt muchisimo shortisimo.wah.haha.i can sew!.n the stupid worders at heeren flash n splash made fun of us.n when i went home.i just stood there outside punggol station.its so quiet.n there was lightning but no rain.n i was just wondering.what do i live for?
Sunday, July 13, 2003
Absent minded thoughts now you’re a stranger
Cover up the scars put on your gameface
Left you in the bar to try and save face
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yesterday woke up early for my bro....carnival organized by sengkang soccer club for the small pri sch budaks at hougang stadium...the standard of pri3 boys is the same as jc girls man..and they can do all the dribbling too..i think my brother is meant to b a girl..he cant compare to his teammates..i think i shall become his private coach..thats how bad he is!i am better than him.haha.
then after that headed for training at delta for a team meeting inside the office.some malay show filming was going on..and two of the kid's central boys were playing in the pitch.whoa now hockey being promoted.and my coach will appear in the show for a while!.haha.they had to make him repeat his sentence a few times cos his malay is not the proper one!haha!and we all ate crackers inside the office.after taht we watched one of our matches against the Project Squad for like 15 minutes.after which we had a game against monkshill boys.haha!fun...
after taht met siti..lela n su told me no gig at CCK so me n siti went to town to meet stella.got nihaad's pj cd signed..n we saw them 3 more times.then we borowed money from stella n watched dumb n dumberer..ROX.haha.town at night is fun.........got home n slept straght away.missed an important phone call......haha....
Thursday, July 10, 2003
These are the whispers that you hear inside your mind.
Subtle yet forceful they are tearing at your side.
She can't see, and I can't believe she's falling.
But I will be there helping when you call on me.
Prove it to the world you're perfect, your choking on your pride.
Gonna kill yourself believing in these beautiful lies.
Don't believe this science fiction, tale of beauty and perfection.
You are more than ordinary it's time to take this blindfold off your eyes.

There's more to life than all the beauty that they sell.
Why must we always try to look like someone else?
She can't see, and I can't believe she's falling.
But I will be there helping when you call on me.
Prove it to the world you're perfect, your choking on your pride.
Gonna kill yourself believing in these beautiful lies.
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brother has soccer match this saturday...i got training at 1..ah..n i got the stupid 5months ago french project due next week..how how...stress..ah.whining again.got a n e math test tom.dunno wat im doing here.
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Monday, July 07, 2003
haha.did anyone bother reading what i posted earlier.hope not.
The Fall of Independent Rock?
Suddenly the industries see big possibilities for mass consumption of the bands who once thrived (or starved) in the underground subcultures. A corporation called Joseph-Fox Communications, Inc. even tried to emulate the style of fanzines with a tiny, slick and laughably naive production called New Route: The new route to new music. Douglas Joseph, the Editor- in-Chief and presumably the former half of Joseph-Fox, wrote an editorial in the October 1989 issue where he brought up the Warner Bros.-Time Inc. merger, PolyGram buying out Island and eventually A&M, EMI buying out Chrysalis Records and Virgin Records taking in major equity partners. "CBS Records is owned by Sony, and RCA Records by BMG," he said, brilliantly concluding that "the music industry is big business."
Joseph believes that the consequences of big business, the sales, distribution and in-store product placement being leveraged with merchandising, advertising and AOR radio play is a positive influence on the music scene. He believes the Godzilla corporations will generously spread increased profits to employees, stockholders, and most importantly, toward developing new artists. "The future of the record business is with the young artists," predicts Joseph.
His theory is that stronger companies will be more apt to experiment with new ideas as well as new musicians, such as BMG funding a new "independent" label, First Warning, which is distributed "independently" by Rough Trade. All A&R and marketing is done independently of BMG, although if any band does or says something BMG does not like, they would disappear from the industry as a label-less band. But Joseph says "as the major labels get bigger, there is more opportunity for the independents." Although independents fear the big squeeze of major labels, the money flowing into the alternative markets from the large companies strengthens the marketplace and supposedly creates more awareness for everyone.
"So," wrote Joseph, "as long as the music industry is healthy, properly managed and new artists continue to crete interesting music, we will hear great music from both major and [puppet] independent labels."
It is powerful people like Douglas Joseph and his New Route to brain-death who continue to remind underground fans of the reality of their worst nightmares. Even more dangerous to the underground culture than Tom Metzger's White Aryan Resistance, it is this continuing threat of the corporate powers to control and exploit the independents for their own convenience and profit that continues to inspire youth around the world to do it themselves.
-- A.S. Van Dorston

whoa.there is a million more words before this.explaining the whole history of skinheads,rude boys and punks.and these sub cultures really have values that society is lacking.not only that.that the sub cultures in singapore are lacking.anti-racism?improving the middle-class?are these shown in the sub-cultures now?what i see most,is just kids rotting around calling themselves skins and bashing each other up.what happened to trying to living in multi racial peace n tolerance and following wat 'The skinhead movement quite explicitly places its hopes for the future of the united action of the working class.'wahahha.i should so totally do a speech on this..but first lemme fully understand this whole subculcuture that has been dubbed as a poser thing.
Sunday, July 06, 2003
characters[no use]-dani
let darkness reugn the world-self procclaimed satanic
let darkness reign the world says:
what's so good bout being a christian?
[no use] says:
aiyo
[no use] says:
tell u also dun care
[no use] says:
ok
[no use] says:
i beleive god created us
[no use] says:
he is always helping us
[no use] says:
no matter how evil we are
[no use] says:
he forgives us
[no use] says:
he is always trying to show us he loves us
[no use] says:
never gives up on us
let darkness reign the world says:
ok ok
let darkness reign the world says:
u ppl all say the same thing
[no use] says:
cos its true
let darkness reign the world says:
whatever
i am detached from society.feeling crap.- makes me feel like crap.sometimes.but sometimes...agh.anw fri was youth day.haha.did u think we are bitcheshmmm found a place where we cld get it.n tak tinggi.but v tired.aku rasang mabok.HAHA.i learnt tt.hmmm sorry if offended anw.
aiya.just to sum it all up...

"The Longest Line"

In the darkest tunnel it's nice to see a light
not just a headlight
like the one that's heading right for me
it would be nice if things could turn out right
turn out right yeah
don't think I'll ever see the day

I must have done something wrong
or maybe pissed off God
I think of Chinese food when I think of life
that's sweet and sour
my life is sweet as saccharine
you know three week old milk and grapes are not
not the same, no
I am the one Johnny Carcinogen

I must have fucked with some witch
in turn she cursed me, cursed my life
at the end of the longest line
that's where I will always be
if you need to find me, just go to
the end of the longest line

But officer that was a yellow light
the light was red, son
insubordination, reckless driving
I must be wrong, this can't be right
I don't belong, this world is much to dangerous
for someone lacking luck, like me

Tuesday, July 01, 2003
school was ok today.the damn nel had smth wrong n i was late..missed the spot check..n everyone said i looked toot today just cos i wore specs..n white shoes..HAHA..fiiine..dunno if gonna wear specs tomorrow again..went to see band shirts..AHHH...so nice..the capsleeves ones are real nice..midtown n all..sucks to be broke..shall get a job..but i got no skills.. oh n
happy birthday SITI
haha so sorry..anw..i was real impressed cos siti was so kind n helped the blind man in the mrt station look after his stuff whie he went toilet..yay..ah..was a good day overall..nothing much happened.so bye.

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"But if you love and have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody into the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingfully and joyfully...."-the prophet.



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